How can you long for someone who doesn't exist? An emotional, moving story about a London power couple with pregnancy problems trying to get pregnant.

Bittersweet, at times funny, and always emotionally raw, this is by far the most moving and honest novel you'll ever read about infertility, IVF and its impact on a marriage. By the winner of The People's Book Prize for Fiction 2016. How can you long for someone who doesn't exist? London career woman Cat has always been in control of her life. Happily married to Dom, but flying high as a political lobbyist, she dismisses his desire to start a family ...until she herself is ready. But what if it is then too late? Complex and selfish, intelligent and open, if she is to succeed in having that elusive child, Cat must battle through gruelling fertility treatment and the emotional strain it places on her marriage. By her side, Dom, easygoing and ever the optimist, finds that he too risks being run ragged by their journey. Both are forced to come to terms with their longing for a baby against the blitz on a relationship tested like never before. A rare, raw, engaging fictional account of the traumas of infertility told with frankness and humour.